I saw you and i know you saw me as well. I was so okay and feel nothing before, I was happily enjoy my morning jogging, but when I wiped my sweat with my arm, thats when I saw you were looking at me, I wanted to make sure that it is you, I know for sure that it was you, I know how exactly you walk and look at people, under the morning sun light at 8 AM, your face was shining as the sun hits your body, you still have those beautiful eyes that I always adore, same feeling I have when I saw you staring at the sky in the late afternoon sun light above someone's house, we faced the same sky, we were so fine back then. I wanted to say hi but I dont know why I was staring against you instead, pretending that I didnt see you at all. and suddenly I feel the pain in my chest again, the pain that I felt when you decided to leave me and even asked me to leave. I dont know why the pain comes to my mind the second I saw you again. I refuse to admit that maybe I'm just suddelnly missing you? I dont know, I remember how I was crying in my bed the second you ended our story, asking God to make you come back to me maybe one day, then I moved on and dont want you in my life anymore, I forget you for awhile but I dont know why this event suddenly triggers me to remember the pain you have thrown for me. It's so hurt and painful, Aldo. Why would you do that to me, Aldo? what did I do? I love you with all my heart but you said I was too good for you then ask me to tell anybody that we have no story, that is so damn cruel, Aldo. you said you have fall for me since middle school, but all you do to me is just so cruel. I remember you act like nothing happened when my birthday comes, and you told my friend that you dont dont wanna say happy birthday to me. I was so okay, we have promised that we will spend my birthday together, onlyy you and I. but at the end, I spent it alone. my friend bought a piece of cake and comfort me that you probably busy or forget, I forgive you but that really hurt, Aldo. but you know how cruel you are for me, Aldo? yet I still see you as a good man, because I believe you are a good man, I love you because of that believe I put on my head and heart. you even asked me to see you only as a vicious man, but even if you force me, I refuse to see you that way because you re not. yet, you re still the part of my beautiful story and I will never regret loving you because I know my love for you is pure, I love you even when everyone put trash on you, I love you even when you re the baddest person. I wish you good.
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