Letters to My Spouse - 3

Dear, my future husband

I remember him again, when I attend my friend's wedding last night, I pray to Allah to make him you. I pray that may he become you, my future husband. I miss him a lot and everyday. I was wondering how it feels like to be a bride to him and stand beside him on the aisle. I couldn't imagine him standing there with another woman, it's so hurt, my chest feels like burned. I still cry sometimes when I think of him, I really miss him, I really love him with all my purest heart, I hope this letter will be read by him one day, as my spouse, Amiin

Letter to My Spouse - 2

 Dear, My Future Spouse.

It's been about 8 days since I feel my heartache, it's still linger on both my brain and my heart. I feel so empty, it's like there is something missing. He is so vicious. just like he always said. I hate that I still missing him a lot. I hate that I still love him with all of my heart. I try to find you, I want you to come and save me from this pain. I hate this feeling. I want to feel the love again. I keep searching for you, maybe you re the cure to all my broken hearts. but why it took so long for you to come and take me? I'm tired and I'm so done with this pain. so please come. 

Letters to my spouse - 1

Dear, My Spouse,

My Spouse that has already written in the Lauhul Mahfudz, I'm writing this letter right when I feel so upset with my love journey, I know people come and go, and I'm trying to make them stay but I could not force them to stay. There is one man that I really love right now, a man that I accept everything about him, but he always think that he is not good enough for me, he always said that he is a very bad person for me, but in my eyes, I only see him as the half of my self, I really love him the way he is but he told me I have to find a better man than him, I don't know who should I find because I'm not able to see anybody else but him anymore. All my love is only for him, unconditionally, I don't know if I can fall for anyone again or not. I always mention him in all my prayers although his name is on the last list but I never skip him even once. He always ask me to stop chasing him even through prayers, I don't know why he suddenly doesnt want me anymore. We were in love back then, March 3, I always remember this day when we both confess to each other, I told him that I love him and he told me that he also love me, I still remember his voice when he said he loves me, I miss his voice.

I'm sorry that I tell you my sad story about the man I love now. I just miss him.